I'm Back
Thanks for all the support from those who still believe in me.
Honestly, the last few months have taken a lot out of me, These last few setbacks - the death of my old car, falling on my face while exercise-walking, and then my new car getting vandalized, along with the money spent - it makes me wonder what’s next. And, at this point, there’s always something that’s next.
Whatever it is, I’ll get through that, too. It’s the anticipation, however, and since the latest car/money issue, I have almost no concentration due to anxiety.
I want it to go away but I don’t want to take any drugs. I have my solutions and they work sometimes, others no. (Feel free to drop your natural remedies in the comments.)
Here’s the weirdest thing: when I compose, the anxiety ramps up; it’s happening while I type this! I have several unfinished posts that I had to stop. I don’t get it.
I love writing and I’m afraid of it.
So that’s what’s going on with me.
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UPDATE: When I hit the publish button, the anxiety shot to the sky. Lying down is the only solution that is always successful, but I can’t afford to lie down anymore.
If you are like me you are afraid of success. I don't know what to do to make the fear get better except to ignore it and type. Once you get used to a certain success it's no longer success it's a habit and you don't have to be scared anymore.
I believe that when we go through challenges, God is trying to pull us nearer to him. He allows the ‘bad’ so that we see we cannot do it alone. It is God’s will that each of us is where we are at each moment. We must surrender to him. Let go and let God. And when we do so fully we will feel true peace. It’s not easy. Most worthwhile things are very difficult.